Monday, August 21, 2006 12:47 AM
haiz..... damn shag this few days.... no school for last week but this week started 2 new modules which is 2D art n 3D art... today is e 3rd lesson for both. so far so good. just that e timing for sch is a LITTLE bit not used to it... cuz its in e morning n till 3pm. all of us were like complaining abt waking up early n stuffs like tt.. well at least everybody agrees with very tired.. hahas...
well... think we are changing... y do i say that? i realised that me n my bf were not like before. he used to be so close to me. but now... dun even wanna tell me abt anything. almost everything need me to ask to guess.. its tiring u know. HEY i'm NOT god, i cant guess wat u are doin in school n i cant see frm the heaven. PLEASE. wat is gf for? is someone who can accompany u n to satisfy your emotional needs. u make me feel like i DO NOT exist. u wan go out with ur frens fine. i never say i dun allow. but at least update me of things. not those irrelvant things pls. i feel so tired. i have to work, have to study, have to do lots of project. and now u wan me everytime ask abt u. i really feel very very shag. n wats more, i have to teach ur siblings tution. i am not super women. i cant do so many things. if u expect me to be more understanding, so must u. sometimes i juz feel like giving up. at least i wun hav so much burden n pressure. i thought u will be good. but now, things changed. even when i see ur messages in ur phone n asked u randomly who's tt smsing u, u scolded me rude. Is there something u dun wan me to see? Or is it something u dun wanna tell me? i dunno. Dun expect me to guess.
i thought u would tell me where u went today urself. but u never. n for the whole day till 8pm, u onli sms me TWICE. so much fun out there? wif ur junior Min? u dun even tell me who u went out wif, until i asked. which i thought u would say. becuz u used to do it.
i dunno whether is me being too sensitive, or unreasonable. i dun feel a sense of security with u anymore. as in now. i dunno wats wrong n i dunno wat to do. PLEASE. put an end to my pains.
in pain
meimei
